Can I just say one thing......YAY for school finally starting! Yes it is only day 3 of my sophomore year, but I am exhausted. In all reality, I really don't even know what I am doing up because I am rather tired, but yet here I am, so this will probably be rather short tonight!
School, so far, is great! I don't know if I shared my schedule before, so I will share it again! I am taking econ, accounting and English 2010, plus stats 2300, cello, symphony, and institute! 15 credits baby.....oh yeah! It is actually just the right amount I think, but so far so good.
I think my English class is going to be rockin'! The teacher is probably only 5 years older then I am, but he seems to know his stuff. I have been told that my accounting professor is one of the best on campus, which is excellent because sitting through just two days of class, I am already a little lost.....haha numbers just aren't my strong suit. As for my econ professor....I haven't heard really anything about him, but so far I like him. I think his teaching methods are going to work well with how I learn, and I am slowly learning that econ is actually pretty interesting. I hate the graphing part of it, but the actual econ part of it is pretty cool, but again we will see where that goes. As for stats.....oh boy. After trying to test into it forever, I finally got in! The class itself is a class of 300 but we have recitations on Wednesdays and Fridays so that should really help! As for my other 3 classes, I haven't started them yet, but they are institute and two music classes so they will be good!
On top of that SAA has been in full throttle as well! September is the big month to recruit and put our name out on campus so we have at least once activity a week and two for some weeks even! Beyond our activities though I am managing the blog and working on other things here and there so it is crazy, but totally worth it! It is seriously one of the best clubs on campus EVER! I am so glad I joined last year! Between the people I have met and the experiences I have had and know I will have.....its just awesome!!!!
My string teaching job is also starting to pick up! Classes start in a two and a half weeks so we have been having meeting and I need to start planning classes too. Just thinking about it makes me really nervous, but I am also very excited! It will be a really good experience and plus it will let me add two more instruments to my list! Woot woot....haha the only problem is learning viola. Little harder then violin notes wise due to the clef, but I am willing and ready to learn!
But that about does it for me tonight! Again it is only day 3 and I feel like I've been in school for 3 weeks. I have been non stop go, for the most part, since Monday, but it is great! Well I am off to bed......TOOTLES!!!!!!
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
Sunday, August 28, 2011
Where Did the Time Go?!
Oh my holy chicken......Where did the time go?!?! School starts tomorrow and I am so flipping excited! I honestly cannot believe that I will be a college sophomore! It feels like yesterday that I was just starting college! I am way excited for this year! Classes, clubs, work........it's all going to be awesome!
This year I am taking accounting, econ, and english 2010, plus cello, symphonic orchestra and hopefully business stats. It sounds like a really boring semester, but I have heard good things about the teachers and the courses, so it should be good! On top of classes themselves, I am also teaching elementary orchestra at two different elementary schools, working at Christopher and Banks, and being historian extraordinaire for the Student Alumni Association! It is going to be a tiring, long, and difficult semester, but I am so beyond exciting! Between the experiences, memories, and good times that I will have, every minute of this semester will be totally worth it!
I also was able to move into my new apartment this past weekend as well, so this whole week is just a whole new start for everything! Luckily I am living with two of my old roommates, so I am way excited about that!
Honestly, this semester is just going to be fabulous! It is exciting to grow up and learn and experience all of these things. Yes....there are parts of growing up that stink major big time, but the other parts are fun, and luckily this semester, I hope, will be a fun one!
Well I better go, but I will shortly report on how classes are going and what not, but as for now.....TOOTLES!!!!
This year I am taking accounting, econ, and english 2010, plus cello, symphonic orchestra and hopefully business stats. It sounds like a really boring semester, but I have heard good things about the teachers and the courses, so it should be good! On top of classes themselves, I am also teaching elementary orchestra at two different elementary schools, working at Christopher and Banks, and being historian extraordinaire for the Student Alumni Association! It is going to be a tiring, long, and difficult semester, but I am so beyond exciting! Between the experiences, memories, and good times that I will have, every minute of this semester will be totally worth it!
I also was able to move into my new apartment this past weekend as well, so this whole week is just a whole new start for everything! Luckily I am living with two of my old roommates, so I am way excited about that!
Honestly, this semester is just going to be fabulous! It is exciting to grow up and learn and experience all of these things. Yes....there are parts of growing up that stink major big time, but the other parts are fun, and luckily this semester, I hope, will be a fun one!
Well I better go, but I will shortly report on how classes are going and what not, but as for now.....TOOTLES!!!!
Sunday, August 21, 2011
Why, why, why, why, WHY????
Have you ever thought to yourself, yelled to the heavens or sat or your knees quietly and asked the nine dollar and ten cent question...."Why God? Why?!" I'm sure we have all been there, done that, and been back again. Its a frequent question we ask everyday without even thinking about it anymore. Why does today suck? Why hasn't he called me? Why can I find the perfect shirt in every color except the one I need? Why didn't I ace that test? Why did everything go wrong all at once? Why did my grandpa end up in the hospital? Why did my car have to die today? Why, why, why, why, why????? Why is one of those words that never goes away and ends up in our vocabulary way more often then it probably should, and I, am sad to report, that this summer, why has come up way more often then it probably should have.
I dont know what it is about this summer, but this one amongst all the others in my nineteen years of living, was an extremely hard summer to get through. I found out a lot about myself this summer, however it came at a price of losing some of me along the way too. I hope that what I have lost is starting, and will slowly begin to come back.
At the beginning of the summer my why's to God were mostly the "Why cant I find a job? I can do whatever, so why why why wont anyone hire me?" After lots of praying, extreme hours of searching, and lots of patience, I was finally able to get a job. After first couple weeks however, a lot of my why's turned into self doubt and insecurities not only in myself, but in others and things I had thought I had understood and known all my life. I have always believed in the church and known that it was right, but when you start to feel so crappy about yourself and things going on around you and people changing, it is sometimes hard to remember the real reasons we are here and that there is someone up there who is always watching out for you.
I guess all I wanted was a little free reassurance. Just to be told everything was going to be alright, you are on the right path, I am giving you this challenge so that later when X, Y, and Z come up you know what to do, but if there is anything I have learned over the years, it is that if you want those answers, you have to ask first. There are not just free answers that will start flying down at ya for no reason....you have to ask first, and to be honest, I flat out didn't want to. Why did I have to ask? See....there is that why again. I just wanted to know why there was all this internal struggling going on, and why there was that little voice in the back of my head, and why wouldn't it go away. Why, why, why, why, WHY? On top of all those why's, why couldn't I just get the answer without asking first and why couldn't it be easy to understand.
Sadly, I believed the little voice in my head and decided that I'd been good enough, I was still a good person so I didn't have to ask. It was worth way more trouble then it was worth. Which, really in turn, made me more why's pop up in my head and made me feel even more conflicted with myself, but it was just too hard to go back.
Luckily today, I finally had a slight break through. This past week-ish has been pretty awful and all I wanted to sit around and do was veg on the couch and watch movies. I got home from my work meeting and though alright let's put in a movie, but what movie? Charley was the first movie to pop into my head, but pushed it aside cuz I wasnt in the crying mood for today. First movie ended, same though popped into my head. Second movie ended, same though popped into my head, so finally I just gave in and stuck in Charley.
Now I am sure you all know about the movie. Crazy girl comes to utah, meets Sam. Sam introduces her to the church, she is baptized, there is some drama in between and then they are married. Once they are married and have a baby, Charley learns she has terminal cancer. It's such a sad, but great film. Anyways, in the movie, after Sam finds out about the cancer, the question that comes out of his mouth the most is why. "Why God cant you heal her? Why God are you taking her from me? Why, why, why?" Before Charley dies, she tells Sam that it will all work out. It doesnt matter what you have done previous or are doing in the moment, but it will all work out. She talks about how the gospel has served them so well and that there was no way they could back out or not believe now just because of a road bump along the way. There was no reason for them to turn away from God just cuz he didnt give them what they wanted. Just because things don't go the way you want them to does not mean that you are any less important or forgotten. Regardless she doesnt say those exact words, but tonight that was what I got out of it, and it was exactly what I needed to hear. God truly does work in mysterious way doesnt he?
Here is the truly amazing part. I could honestly say that it has been awhile since me and the man upstairs have had a good chat, but regardless of that, he still answered my why's tonight. He did not answer them specifically, but close enough that it makes me realize he hears us and knows our hearts desires without having to talk to us directly. There are still a lot of why's going on in my head right now, and I dont see that changing anytime soon, but to know that without even asking, God can send us that comfort and those answers is truly a blessing. It is one of those times that smacks you in the face when you need it the most to bring you down off your high horse.
I am sorry if this whole entry seems pretty jumbled, but it was one of those things that I needed to just get out of my head and all down on a piece of paper, or in my case, a computer screen. I am starting to realize the rut I have been in the past few months and I am mostly realizing that it is time to climb out. Sadly the climb is going to be a tough one this time around, probably one of the tougher ones too, but I know it will be worth it.
I remember a couple summers ago, I was going through a little rough patch....surprising, I know, but I was talking with my mom and she said something that I will never forget. She probably doesnt even remember this but I remember sitting there talking with her and asking what was the point anymore. I was doing what I should and nothing was coming of it. Maybe this way of life or way of thinking wasnt the right one or the one I should be following. Well my mom, in all her wisdom and firm tone of voice, looked me straight in the face and said "You've been taught better....You know better then to doubt." How true that wise mama is! That thought comes to me more then most I think, when I struggle and watching the movie tonight and thinking over some things, that was all that would keep popping into my head. Isnt it amazing what a simple movie can do for you?! Just that one little thought, is the thing that put me to ease on a couple things tonight and plus it was the quiet reassurance that was very much needed.
I know this post is a little longer and on a more serious not then usual, but tonight I needed to just get this all down. But just in closing to this more serious blog for this even I want everyone to remember that if you just stick to what you know and live those principles and try your hardest, I am pretty sure that the why's will start to come less and less and it will be easier to concentrate on the more important things in life that are happening right now.
I dont know what it is about this summer, but this one amongst all the others in my nineteen years of living, was an extremely hard summer to get through. I found out a lot about myself this summer, however it came at a price of losing some of me along the way too. I hope that what I have lost is starting, and will slowly begin to come back.
At the beginning of the summer my why's to God were mostly the "Why cant I find a job? I can do whatever, so why why why wont anyone hire me?" After lots of praying, extreme hours of searching, and lots of patience, I was finally able to get a job. After first couple weeks however, a lot of my why's turned into self doubt and insecurities not only in myself, but in others and things I had thought I had understood and known all my life. I have always believed in the church and known that it was right, but when you start to feel so crappy about yourself and things going on around you and people changing, it is sometimes hard to remember the real reasons we are here and that there is someone up there who is always watching out for you.
I guess all I wanted was a little free reassurance. Just to be told everything was going to be alright, you are on the right path, I am giving you this challenge so that later when X, Y, and Z come up you know what to do, but if there is anything I have learned over the years, it is that if you want those answers, you have to ask first. There are not just free answers that will start flying down at ya for no reason....you have to ask first, and to be honest, I flat out didn't want to. Why did I have to ask? See....there is that why again. I just wanted to know why there was all this internal struggling going on, and why there was that little voice in the back of my head, and why wouldn't it go away. Why, why, why, why, WHY? On top of all those why's, why couldn't I just get the answer without asking first and why couldn't it be easy to understand.
Sadly, I believed the little voice in my head and decided that I'd been good enough, I was still a good person so I didn't have to ask. It was worth way more trouble then it was worth. Which, really in turn, made me more why's pop up in my head and made me feel even more conflicted with myself, but it was just too hard to go back.
Luckily today, I finally had a slight break through. This past week-ish has been pretty awful and all I wanted to sit around and do was veg on the couch and watch movies. I got home from my work meeting and though alright let's put in a movie, but what movie? Charley was the first movie to pop into my head, but pushed it aside cuz I wasnt in the crying mood for today. First movie ended, same though popped into my head. Second movie ended, same though popped into my head, so finally I just gave in and stuck in Charley.
Now I am sure you all know about the movie. Crazy girl comes to utah, meets Sam. Sam introduces her to the church, she is baptized, there is some drama in between and then they are married. Once they are married and have a baby, Charley learns she has terminal cancer. It's such a sad, but great film. Anyways, in the movie, after Sam finds out about the cancer, the question that comes out of his mouth the most is why. "Why God cant you heal her? Why God are you taking her from me? Why, why, why?" Before Charley dies, she tells Sam that it will all work out. It doesnt matter what you have done previous or are doing in the moment, but it will all work out. She talks about how the gospel has served them so well and that there was no way they could back out or not believe now just because of a road bump along the way. There was no reason for them to turn away from God just cuz he didnt give them what they wanted. Just because things don't go the way you want them to does not mean that you are any less important or forgotten. Regardless she doesnt say those exact words, but tonight that was what I got out of it, and it was exactly what I needed to hear. God truly does work in mysterious way doesnt he?
Here is the truly amazing part. I could honestly say that it has been awhile since me and the man upstairs have had a good chat, but regardless of that, he still answered my why's tonight. He did not answer them specifically, but close enough that it makes me realize he hears us and knows our hearts desires without having to talk to us directly. There are still a lot of why's going on in my head right now, and I dont see that changing anytime soon, but to know that without even asking, God can send us that comfort and those answers is truly a blessing. It is one of those times that smacks you in the face when you need it the most to bring you down off your high horse.
I am sorry if this whole entry seems pretty jumbled, but it was one of those things that I needed to just get out of my head and all down on a piece of paper, or in my case, a computer screen. I am starting to realize the rut I have been in the past few months and I am mostly realizing that it is time to climb out. Sadly the climb is going to be a tough one this time around, probably one of the tougher ones too, but I know it will be worth it.
I remember a couple summers ago, I was going through a little rough patch....surprising, I know, but I was talking with my mom and she said something that I will never forget. She probably doesnt even remember this but I remember sitting there talking with her and asking what was the point anymore. I was doing what I should and nothing was coming of it. Maybe this way of life or way of thinking wasnt the right one or the one I should be following. Well my mom, in all her wisdom and firm tone of voice, looked me straight in the face and said "You've been taught better....You know better then to doubt." How true that wise mama is! That thought comes to me more then most I think, when I struggle and watching the movie tonight and thinking over some things, that was all that would keep popping into my head. Isnt it amazing what a simple movie can do for you?! Just that one little thought, is the thing that put me to ease on a couple things tonight and plus it was the quiet reassurance that was very much needed.
I know this post is a little longer and on a more serious not then usual, but tonight I needed to just get this all down. But just in closing to this more serious blog for this even I want everyone to remember that if you just stick to what you know and live those principles and try your hardest, I am pretty sure that the why's will start to come less and less and it will be easier to concentrate on the more important things in life that are happening right now.
Tuesday, August 9, 2011
Slight New Obsession
So for the past few weeks I have been hanging out with my neighbors, who are awesome by the way! The beginning of the summer was really boring and none of us were brave enough to go knock on someone's door and say, "Hey, let's do something!" Well we finally all ended up hanging out and for the past month or so we are always hanging out....it's awesome! But anyway, back to my slight new obsession.
My neighbor Maddie is a HUGE fan of The Big Bang Theory, and I have watched a couple episodes before, but never really gotten into it.....until now!
The past few nights when a bunch of us have hung out, we have stuck in Big Bang Theory while we are doing stuff! It is soooo funny! I haven't laughed this hard watching a show since Friends! I love how nerdy Sheldon and Leonard are! They are absolutely hysterical! And Raj and Howard are just the perfect nerdy comedic add on. I love their love for science and comic book heroes and everything! Then when you add in Penny, who is completely clueless but still loves her nerdy neighbors, the whole thing is just great! If you have never watched this show, I would highly recommend it! Luckily Maddie as all 3 seasons, so I am borrowing them and watching through so I can be caught up when the 4th season comes out! Well I am out for now....TOOTLES!!!!!
My neighbor Maddie is a HUGE fan of The Big Bang Theory, and I have watched a couple episodes before, but never really gotten into it.....until now!
The past few nights when a bunch of us have hung out, we have stuck in Big Bang Theory while we are doing stuff! It is soooo funny! I haven't laughed this hard watching a show since Friends! I love how nerdy Sheldon and Leonard are! They are absolutely hysterical! And Raj and Howard are just the perfect nerdy comedic add on. I love their love for science and comic book heroes and everything! Then when you add in Penny, who is completely clueless but still loves her nerdy neighbors, the whole thing is just great! If you have never watched this show, I would highly recommend it! Luckily Maddie as all 3 seasons, so I am borrowing them and watching through so I can be caught up when the 4th season comes out! Well I am out for now....TOOTLES!!!!!
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